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Step, Right
03:21
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I check the clock and it's 10:30 or so
we've been laughing since 10:30 or so and I don't know
the last time that I lost track of time
been a slave to the tick and my mind (or lack of)
I'm happy to be alive
please don't bring up the media,
at least just for a little while
there's a rock and some people standing tall
give me a minute, feels good to stand at all, alright
and there's a march going right outside my door
I leave my room to play cards on the floor
it's a step, right?
I'm happy to be alive
please don't bring up the media,
at least just for a little while
I'm happy to be alive
I'm happy to be alive
I'm happy to be a lie
I'm happy to be a lie
I'm happy to be a lie
at least just for a little while
what a fucking joke
what a fucking joke
I check the clock and it's 10:30 or so
we've been laughing since 10:30 or so
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2. |
OK / OK
02:38
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is it okay to feel okay now?
is it okay to feel rotten
even when I feel alright?
when can I, when should I leave the bathroom?
it's been a while since I heard the last boom
I think I might sometime soon
the window rattles, there's a stillness to the sky
I fear I might be looking it in the eye
my own are quite dry
I could blink or I could cry
or I could stay here in the room
is it okay to feel okay now?
is it okay to feel rotten
even when I feel alright?
is it okay to feel okay now?
is it okay to feel nothing
even when I feel like hell?
the city sound don't bother me anymore
I've learned to block it out
I'm working on my snore
now I'm a good sleeper but careless on the street
a disconnect of body and soul got me here but now it's getting old
now might I handle this blessed unity?
is it okay to feel okay now?
is it okay to feel rotten
even when I feel alright?
is it okay to feel okay now?
is it okay to feel nothing
even when I feel like hell?
is it okay to feel okay now?
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3. |
Almost Joy
03:33
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there's a light, there's a light, there's a light
there's a pill that the internet raves about
there's a light that follows the night
a night I should've spent sleeping
there were days where I carried a corpse around town
looping eyelid scenarios
might owe everything I know to faux medicine and TV shows
I see you creeping around like the sun
in a Portland winter--once you notice, it's gone
I need you
Can't get enough of that almost joy
like an almost hole-in-one
like an almost holy one
like it's almost said and done
'fore you brace for another one
there's a light, there's a light, there's a light
there's a stale green signal ahead of me
might owe everything I know to scheduled events
and a twitching elbow
I see you creeping around like the sun
in a Portland winter--once you notice, it's gone
I need you
Can't get enough of that almost joy
like an almost hole-in-one
like an almost holy one
like it's almost said and done
'fore you brace for another one
like an almost loaded gun
in a standoff with no one
but a shadow in the sun
let's just brace for another one
I feel you like a salmon to spawn
move in for a kiss--overcome with a yawn
I need you
can't get enough of that almost joy
I need you like a seed in the soil
a leaflet don't make it worth all the toil
when the rabbits come
I'll be humming that almost joy
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in that moment
the saddest moment
when she pleaded, begged me
to eat just one cookie
I felt like I was in a move
where some small gesture sums up everything
in the most sobering way
it still haunts me today
today I peddled up to Winco
past the pharmacy, I haven't refilled in months
and got to spreading the mulch around the garden
could feel my stomach harden
felt my hip just a little bit
but not enough to stop from starting
another average thing
last year I couldn't even dream of
but in this moment
a glimmering moment
I'm more myself but I didn't get there going backwards
even if it looks that way
I'm not saying anyone was right
in fact, that's the point
life works out sometimes
even when everyone's wrong
or when we don't have a clue
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5. |
drawkcaB
03:08
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I was never one to look up
I was never one to look down
so I guess I chose to look forward
toward what felt like the only other option
I was never one to look up
I was never one to look down
so instead I chose to look forward
toward what felt like the only other option
but there's not much to see but a big brick wall
and all the graffiti makes no sense to me
yeah, all the graffiti makes no sense at all
I was never one to look up
I was never one to look down
so instead I chose to look forward
toward what felt like the only other option
but there's not much to see but a big brick wall
and all the graffiti makes no sense to me
yeah, all the graffiti makes no sense at all
I was always one to look forward
I was never one to look up or down
'til someone told me I could look backward
I think that may just turn my life around
I was always one to look forward
I was never one to look up or down
'til someone told me I could look backward
I think I may just turn my life around
like stars in the sky now I connect the dots
and like any constellation it's spotty at best
but makes so much more sense
hell, I'm doing my best
I'm doing my best
I'm doing my best
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6. |
Mediocre Title Track
03:08
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I hit the brakes
I hit the brakes
I hit the brakes
I hit the brakes
I hit the brakes on the pillow on Sunday night
I hit the brakes when the dairy starts a fight
I hit the brakes for the stale green light
I hit the brakes when the bees freeze overnight
I hit the brakes when the struggle feels too trite
I hit the brakes for the stale green light
I hit it again and again and again
I hit it again and again and again
I hit it again and again and again
I hit the gas
I hit the gas
I hit the gas when I'm zoomin' on my bike
I hit the gas when my baby holds me tight
I hit the gas for the stale green light
I hit it again and again and again
I hit it again and again and again
I hit it again and again and again
even when I know it's a long shot
even when I know it's all we got
I hit it again and again and again
I hit it again and again and again
I hit it again and again and again (I hit the brakes, I hit the brakes)
I hit it again and again and again
I hit it again and again and again
I hit it again and again and again (I hit the brakes, I hit the brakes)
I hit it again and again and again
I hit it again and again and again
I hit it again and again and again (I hit the gas, I hit the gas)
I hit it again and again and again
I hit it again and again and again
I hit it again and again and again (I hit the gas, I hit the gas)
even when I know it's a long shot
even when I know it's all we got
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7. |
Conditional Tense
02:58
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there was no other way for the cock to be slain
no way a little less painful or more humane
there was no other time, maybe later in life
maybe later in life or at least past prime
there was no better way for the plane to come down
like maybe over a lake or not even at all
there was no better time to lose a son
like when he could've been older and also had one
it's not that it had to be
but it was, now it is
so let it be
it's not that easy
there is no better time to flush out of my mind
the conditional tense I was taught when I was five
there is no better time to roast that rooster
and to call my mother up and tell her I'm fine
I'm fine
I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine
I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine
I think I believe it this time
it's not that it had to be
but it was, now it is
so let it be
it's not that easy
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8. |
PNW Escapism
03:34
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in the needles beneath and between my toes
as the bridge sways over the river below
there's something whispering
'take it slow'
on the clear, cool mirror, in the backstroke
on the slippery stones the bones awoke
there's something whispering
'take it slow'
as feet step into the hidden falls
a brick between the ribs dissolves
there's something whispering
in the pause
get your get your head out of the clouds
and tell me what you plan to do about it
in raspberry brambles, the sweetest blood
in the Sandy Delta after the flood
there's something whispering
'it's all enough'
in the way our love smells in the sun
a decay of all beneath the fun
there's something whispering
'it's never done'
get your get your head out of the clouds
and tell me what you plan to do about it
I'm not sure I wanna go home
I think as I check my phone
in the misty rain in the snow white snow
as the lungs sync up with something below
there's something whispering
'take it slow'
as grass between the fingers flow
an upright tail shows what we all know
that something's whispering
'take it slow'
get your get your head out of the clouds
get your get your head out of the clouds
get your get your head out of the clouds
get your get your head out of the
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9. |
Notes Within The Bars
02:06
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Henderson is frozen and the kids go sledding past abandoned cars
the city has gone silent, makes room to hear the notes within the bars
and I recall shoveling garbage on my body in the bathtub last night
I wake up feeling disgusting but I'd much prefer a bad dream to no sleep
'cause all the bad dreams snap all reality's crap in perspective
and sometimes it takes a snow day to realize there's no day like today
today I saw St. Helens from a spot I must've walked a thousand times
but somehow never noticed or I never looked up while both aligned
and I recall shouting in the kitchen and long distance missing you to death
but I much prefer collision to parallel division all my life
'cause sometimes it takes a snow day to realize there's no day like today
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10. |
Diphenhydramine
03:54
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my chest is 'bout to burst like in Alien
whatever's inside must be steering the ship
they got me working like a goddamn sled dog
ask for a favor, I'll give you the slip
close my eyes, cue the panic
open wide, it's all rancid
everyone's just trying to get somewhere
myself included but I'd rather stay home
but a good night's sleep
but a good night's sleep
but a good night's sleep changes everything
I forgot the stupid garage code
locked myself out just trying to take a lead
'cause someone else was hogging the bathroom now I'm
pounding on the door as the rain turned to sleet
knock knock, who's there?
knock knock--oh who really cares?
everyone knows the world isn't flat but
I'm not convinced that the things on it aren't
but a good night's sleep
but a good night's sleep
but a good night's sleep changes everything
but what does that mean?
and how does one dream
without diphenhydramine?
'cause a good night's sleep
yeah a good night's sleep
but a good night's sleep changes everything
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11. |
Venom
02:42
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venom's known to
venom generally makes things worse
but in my hands it might
in my hands it will reverse the curse
gave your life
gave your life to hurt me
gave your life but it heals me
so now who is the god?
now who is the god?
now which of us is God?
I'll forgive you
I'll forgive you
I'll forgive you
if you forgive me
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12. |
Breathe Easy Swim Deep
03:22
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